Monday, November 27, 2006

You make me completely miserable

I am depressed. It's for no particular reason, and I know on a scale of how depressed other people can get I nowhere near that level, but I do feel rubbish today. I've got nothing to really feel bad about but as I am usually quite happy, when I get a little down it hits me more.

What I really feel like doing is going out and getting drunk, but that is not an option, and anyway, what good would that do? The only benefit I feel is that I'm actually writing something personal on this blog, instead of just the usual ramblings.

I am tired, and I guess that doesn't help, and all I really want is to do nothing, to wallow, and to be alone. None of that is going to happen. I honestly can't wait 'til the Christmas holidays when I get a few days off.

Did I mention it's my birthday next week? 26 I'll be. And 'No' that is not the reason I am depressed. I'll be off to France on Saturday with some good friends, and no doubt getting drunk and ice-skating. Doesn't time fly eh? I guess I am a little miffed at getting older, but I shouldn't be. I'm still young although it's weird to thing that a 1/3rd of my life has gone by (hopefully given the national life expectancy). I guyes what I hate is that there are only so many hours in a day. I do not use these hours to the best of my abilities.

I suppose the job is part of the reason although I enjoy it on the whole, it's just some parts which annoy me, and I guess it's those parts that I can't control, like other people.

I should just try and change some things, and I will do that, but they always take longer to do than anticipated.

I guess that's the end of my depressing post, and I'm sure I'll be bright-eyed and bushy-tailed by the next post.

Au Revoir.

I also wanty to change my blogger template because it is shit. It looks good but the functonality is crap, and that annoys me. It will change soon.


Nils (formerly Napfisk) said...

Feeling tired, old, depressed and wanting to get drunk... Mm, surprisingly recognizable. Oh, and I hate my blog too. Ah, I guess this too shall pass, right? Take care mate!

Aravis said...

Sorry you're feeling low. I think you're right to avoid drinking just now, only because alcohol is a depressant and can't help your current situation. Save it for France when you're sure to be feeling better. :0)

I had similar thoughts when I turned 25. I kept thinkgin "I can't believe I'm a quarter of a century old!" and my friends and family all laughed at me. Now I'm over 10 years older than that and I have to tell you, things actually get better with age. Situations bother you less in general. So an early Happy Birthday to you! I hope you have a great time, and enjoy creating your new template.

adem said...

I'm feeling a bit better now.

Cheers all.

I've also given the template a spruce as you may have noticed.

Cheezy said...

They say misery loves company, so I just thought I'd register that I'm feeling pretty f*cked up at the moment too. Not only did I turn 35 last week, but I gave up smoking at the same time - so that's an existential-creeping-closer-to-the-grave panic combined with the physical and psychological pain of craving cigarettes. I've definitely felt a lot better :-/

I like the new template by the way.