Monday, November 27, 2006

You make me completely miserable

I am depressed. It's for no particular reason, and I know on a scale of how depressed other people can get I nowhere near that level, but I do feel rubbish today. I've got nothing to really feel bad about but as I am usually quite happy, when I get a little down it hits me more.

What I really feel like doing is going out and getting drunk, but that is not an option, and anyway, what good would that do? The only benefit I feel is that I'm actually writing something personal on this blog, instead of just the usual ramblings.

I am tired, and I guess that doesn't help, and all I really want is to do nothing, to wallow, and to be alone. None of that is going to happen. I honestly can't wait 'til the Christmas holidays when I get a few days off.

Did I mention it's my birthday next week? 26 I'll be. And 'No' that is not the reason I am depressed. I'll be off to France on Saturday with some good friends, and no doubt getting drunk and ice-skating. Doesn't time fly eh? I guess I am a little miffed at getting older, but I shouldn't be. I'm still young although it's weird to thing that a 1/3rd of my life has gone by (hopefully given the national life expectancy). I guyes what I hate is that there are only so many hours in a day. I do not use these hours to the best of my abilities.

I suppose the job is part of the reason although I enjoy it on the whole, it's just some parts which annoy me, and I guess it's those parts that I can't control, like other people.

I should just try and change some things, and I will do that, but they always take longer to do than anticipated.

I guess that's the end of my depressing post, and I'm sure I'll be bright-eyed and bushy-tailed by the next post.

Au Revoir.

I also wanty to change my blogger template because it is shit. It looks good but the functonality is crap, and that annoys me. It will change soon.

4 comments:

Nils (formerly Napfisk) said...

Feeling tired, old, depressed and wanting to get drunk... Mm, surprisingly recognizable. Oh, and I hate my blog too. Ah, I guess this too shall pass, right? Take care mate!

Aravis said...

Sorry you're feeling low. I think you're right to avoid drinking just now, only because alcohol is a depressant and can't help your current situation. Save it for France when you're sure to be feeling better. :0)

I had similar thoughts when I turned 25. I kept thinkgin "I can't believe I'm a quarter of a century old!" and my friends and family all laughed at me. Now I'm over 10 years older than that and I have to tell you, things actually get better with age. Situations bother you less in general. So an early Happy Birthday to you! I hope you have a great time, and enjoy creating your new template.

adem said...

I'm feeling a bit better now.

Cheers all.

I've also given the template a spruce as you may have noticed.

Cheezy said...

They say misery loves company, so I just thought I'd register that I'm feeling pretty f*cked up at the moment too. Not only did I turn 35 last week, but I gave up smoking at the same time - so that's an existential-creeping-closer-to-the-grave panic combined with the physical and psychological pain of craving cigarettes. I've definitely felt a lot better :-/

I like the new template by the way.