Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Let it snow

Hi everyone! It's been a while. I've not really been in the blogging mood as, well, nothing has really been happening apart from the usual. It's still snowing here in Ramsgate which is nice and makes it actually feel like winter. I'm a firm believer in the seasons, and like it when things happen how they're meant to. Spring, Summer, Autumn, Winter, and all the elements thats belongs to them in the cycle that is life.

The weather isn't quite what it used to be [from what I remember] and I didn't like it that on Christmas day it was one of the warmest days of winter with sun pouring through the windows. Add this to torrential downpours in Summer and something is most definitely f**ked up. [there are many theories as to the cause of this i.e. global warming, but I won't go into these today.]

This may sound a bit flakey, but isn't nature, the weather, the world, a brilliant and mystical place??? I was thinking this when I was walking in the snow on Monday night.....absolutely brilliant, and something that I will never be able to fully comprehend.

I hope you all got what you wanted at Christmas and more importantly spent time with friends and family and enjoyed yourselves.

I'm off to work at the pub in a bit [3pm-11:30pm shift!] so we'll speak later.

Saturday, December 24, 2005

It's Christmas!! [in a Noddy Holder stylee]

not long now........

but it still doesn't feel like Christmas.....

Thursday, December 22, 2005

They know that Santa's on his way; He's loaded lots of toys and goodies on his sleigh.

Is it the 22nd already??? I've got most of my presents but I've still got a few to get, but couldn't really be bothered today so I'll get them tomorrow. I hope I've been a good boy so that Santa visits me!!!

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Let's talk about sex for now to the people at home or in the crowd, It keeps coming up anyhow

For regular readers to this blog you will know that I was going to Stevenage this weekend to meet V. Stevenage is 113 miles from here but as it's only on motorways it doesn't actually take that long. Now for those that don't know V. is 18 and has moved up to Stevenage with her family so I was going to be staying in the family home which could potentially result in some awkward moments, as her mother and brother were going to be there for the Friday and most of the Saturday, but unluckily for some fate played a hand.

V's soon to be stepdad, who was still at their old house, had broken his ankle whilst at work, leaving him incapacitated, and so V's mum and brother left that night leaving us the house to ourselves for the weekend....Brilliant [bad news about the ankle though].

We spent a fair bit of time just chilling and watching TV, going to the shops, and alike, and even managed a trip to the cinema to see Harry Potter [okay but mediocre] but you don't really want to hear about that do you??? Do you want all the juicy details??? Well if you do I will have to insert this....

[TOO LATE! It's been removed in case of future viewings from those who shouldn't see it!]
V should be coming down this week sometime and no doubt I'll be going up there again. I don't know how serious the relationship is but at the moment we're enjoying each others company and just going with the flow. Hopefully more news to follow from the big blog, which I hope has become more engaging in the past few weeks.

Thursday, December 15, 2005

The winner takes it all... the loser has to fall

I'm off to a quiz tonight at the giant corporation that is Pfizer. Quite a few of my friends work there and we've done the quiz the past few times but never actually win. I don't know if this has something to do with the fact that we usually get very...very...drunk. "Armadillo's" [that is for Jonny if he reads this.]

Then on Friday afternoon I'm off to Stevenage....

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

On the road again...

A few posts back I told you of my brief dalliance with V. She moved away and I thought "end of story" although she said she would be visiting from time to time. Well we've been talking a bit on the phone and she told me that she'd be visiting this weekend as she could get a lift down with her Mum, I said that I could always give her a lift back, and then she said why don't I just go up there this weekend to visit.

So on friday I'll be making my way to stevenage and I'll come back early Sunday morning.

I'll tell you more then......who know's what will's been a while......

Happy Christmas (War Is Over)

A very Merry Christmas,
And a Happy New Year.
Let's hope it's a good one,
Without any fear.

mmmm...."Merry Christmas"...yes...."Without any fear" On 20th March 2003 the Iraq war started, and although it was assumed that the conflict would be over pretty soon [after all we are vastly superior] today 'celebrates' the 1000th day of the war. Okay troops are pulling out and the US may not still class it as a war against Iraq [afterall they got Saddam didn't they], instead a war against terrorism, but people are dying everyday, bombs are going off, and I think we can categorically deny that 'War is Over' and that it will be a 'good one, without any fear.'
[Read more here]

Friday, December 09, 2005

There'll be parties for hosting, marshmallows for toasting

Hi everybody! Just checking in before the weekend. How's your week been?? Mine's not been too bad although I am aching at the end of the week. On wednesday I was at work 10am-1:45pm then I played Rugby from 2pm-3:30pm and then I worked from 4pm 'til 9pm in the pub. I got home and my arms and legs were aching as I'd been putting in a few tackles at Rugby and my body isn't really used to it. Only my arms hurt now as I've used muscles that I haven't used for donkey's years. I am getting old!

I went out for my first Xmas dinner last night, then I've got a footy one tonight, and then another one on Saturday!! I will be even fatter by Sunday!!!

Have a good weekend guys and gals


Tuesday, December 06, 2005

i hurt myself today to see if i could feel

Yesterday's excursion into pain involved a drawing pin. I was at work and putting a pin back into a notice board when without realising it I had pushed the pin vitually all the way into my thumb! What had happened was that clumsily the pin had flipped around and so instead of going into the board it went in me! That didn't hurt as much as pulling the f**ker come the blue plasters again.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun, Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won

My plans for my actual birthday were to have some fun during the day, maybe a spot of bowling, etc, but in the end we were all too tired and hungover and so I text everyone to tell them to meet up the Pub at 8pm for a few drinks and then maybe a wander down the seafront. That was the plan.

After the escapade's of Friday night I got a call from V [the now ex-colleague moving away] asking to meet up the pub at 6pm [10 minutes away] so I popped a fresh top on [bought from Matalan with some Birthday money] and got around there. I admit it was slightly awkward at first and slightly embarrassing as this is the pub where I work and there were loads of nudge nudge wink winks going around. We went into the pool room to play a few games and be somewhere a bit more private and soon things got back on track. As I said it was awkward and the first thing was to get this out in the open, she agreed, and from there we were able to talk honestly and frankly about everything.

It was a weird situation as we both knew she was going away but we both agreed that if that were not the case then we would've moved the relationship on. I know V only through working we her and so we have a few things in common but what do you talk about??? Usually crap because you're scared of making a fool of yourself and not actually committing to talking about personal things, but here's how it changed with V. Everything was going well and it was really good to actually talk about relationships with someone who I've had one of the shortest relationships with! [less than 24 hours!!]

It was soon 8pm and my friends turned up and so I had to share my time with V and them, but they were cool. The thing with Ramsgate is that virtually everyone knows everyone else, especially if you frequent the pub [a bit like Eastenders then], and so everyone we knew came in, and usually I'd be a bit embarrassed but in this case I wasn't and I think this was because we were very honest with each other and everyone likes to see 2 people happy in each others company.

V was meant to be finishing her packing that evening but of course couldn't resist and stayed till 10pm. We went outside and said our farewells which was quiet hard but obviously inevitable, and so that was the end of that. we've got emails and phones and so we will keep in touch although it won't be the same. Long distance relationships do not work and are very hard to maintain but I will visit her when she's settled down just to catch up with something who I could connect with.

I think the lesson learned is to be more confident and not afraid to express feelings. It's pretty obvious but something we do not always do. I hope you've enjoyed this romantic excursion on the Big Blog and hopefully more to follow from this Lothario.....either that or more boring posts coming up.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

One way ticket to hell...AND BACK!!

Today is my birthday and I am now 25 years of age but I will not be partying too much tonight as I celebrated yesterday by going to France with 7 friends and am now very tired.

I got up at 6:20am to shower and make 8 lots of bacon sarnies before getting to the train station for 7:15am and getting the train to Dover in order to get the 9:45am sailing to Calais. It only takes 40 minutes to get to Dover but due to increased security we would have to check in 45 minutes before the sailing. I won't talk much about the day sufficed to say that I started drinking at 9:45am and ended at 2:30am, which meant that I drank A LOT. I've got to say that I'm shockingly quite proud of this and am being a complete hypocrite as in the past I've had many rants about drinkers and alcohol, but hey it was my birthday!

Now to go slightly on a tangent.... We got back to the local at 10pm and had slightly sobered up by this time so we were going to stay there till 12am, have some more drinks, and then make our own ways. I had also arranged to meet a work colleague from the Pub who is moving to Stevenage this weekend and when we got to the pub I bumped into her and she tried to persuade me to go clubbing in Margate. As I said I was quite tired by that time as it had been a long day but I really wanted to go as, well, I quite fancied her. We've been working together on Monday evenings and have been getting on really well together, and dare I say it slightly flirting, so maybe the evening was going to get even better [if you get what I mean].

I had a word with the guys and tried to persuade them to come along to Margate but they weren't really up for it, but a couple said they'd come along if I really wanted them too. I was going to hold them to it but before I knew it I was in a Taxi with said colleague and several other fellow workers or the female persuasion. We had a few drinks in Yates and then headed off to Buzz club and it soon became apparent that something could be happening. The night went well and we spent the night dancing and kissing. I felt good and rejuvenated as it's been a while since I've seen some 'action'.

She told me that she hadn't been sure whether I was interested in her or not [obviously this had been clarified over the evening] and it's true as I'm really quite bad at taking hints and spotting signs as I guess I'm quite scared of making a fool of myself by misreading the situation. I've been the subject of unrequited love and also been a victim of it too, and I can tell you it is very awkward. In this circumstance everything worked out quite well, but obviously she is moving away and so this relationship is ended before it has begun...damn.

I have a few questions. How can you tell the difference between casual friendly flirting and 'I want this to be something more' flirting?? Usually unless it's very full on then there's not much difference. In the past my lovelife has been saved by getting the lowdown from best friends and knowing that my advances will not be rejected. I guess I'm scared of rejection but for this I will use one of my favourite sayings: "You can't win the lottery if you don't buy a ticket."

So here I am slightly boosted in confidence but knowing that I won't take my own advice.

I'm off out again tonight but will definitely be taking it a bit easier tonight. Laters

Thursday, December 01, 2005

If I'd been out 'till quarter to three,would you lock the door?

I'm off to Calais tomorrow on a 9:45am sailing from Dover. Not much news this week as I've been working away from a PC. I'll try and get some pictures and put them up sometime over the weekend.

Farewell for now, au revoir 24 years of age, hello more mature 25 years.

[soundtrack to the weekend: Royksopp - What Else Is There?]